Discouragement

Yesterday was a very discouraging day. I was all hyped up about all the meetings I had, but they didn't really go as I expected. I have had a dream center in Auburn on my heart for a while now. Well the first meeting I went to was supposed to be on that, but when I told the coordinator what was on my heart she seemed to bash everything about it. Then at my mission trip meeting last night I heard someone talking about the dream center in Auburn and so I thought I would jump in. Again I was drilled with discouragement. I was told I can not help everyone. WHAT? I can sure try to help everyone that I can and for the people I can't help I can connect them to people that can help. I don't need to sit around and be selfish. I was also told that I didn't need to get too involved. It shouldn't be about me. Yes I need to fill myself up with God first but the rest should just be overflowing his love. There could be no way to pour out if I was filled myself. If I am filled up why can't I overflow?? Also if  I am being called to something why should I be told that it is not right. I don't know maybe my dreams are too big but I guess that is why it is called a DREAM center...

Another thing that stuck out to me was the lady said that we shouldn't serve by the principle "Find a need and fill it. Find a hurt and heal it." Like what is that. That is a great motto that we should live by. We were put on the earth to love God and to love his people. If my heart is "too big" in that I search for needs to be filled and hearts to be healed well I think God would be proud of me.

Then the thought crossed my head am I the one who wants the dream center or is it because God wants me to put one here... I thought it was because He wanted one but then nothing seems to be falling into place anymore. If it is his plan everything would work itself out, but yet all I am getting is discouragement.

I really need some encouragement from God if this is what He wants me to do. I am okay with walking away if it is not, but I really need to know.