Prayer and Fasting

Last night I decided to start a fast from all solid foods and only drink liquids. I am desperate to be filled up with God again. I am drained to the point of spiritual exhaustion. I had trouble coming up with words in my prayers this morning. THAT IS NOT OKAY! I was beating myself up over it and then I remembered something that was said on my mission trip. The Devil tries to tell you that pauses in prayer are awkward and bad but instead they should actually be seen as a selah to all that God is doing. By remembering this I was able to push past the barrier and begin to pray. I still paused quite frequently because I was out of things to say but at least some words were coming out of my mouth. I am also desperate to see my best friend get healed. I have begun to get frustrated with God in that I really don't understand why he has not intervened in this situation to bring healing. I am trying to overcome this frustration by remembering that He is a faithful God and that He has showed me this numerous times in my life.

I also don't like that the emptiness I am filling from being spiritual exhausted has left me an easy target for Satan. He has thrown at me so much the past week or so and it is hard to work past it all. So in order to combat the emptiness and attacks and seek healing and peace I am fasting. I know my heart is in this fast for the right reasons and there is no other words but desperate to describe the state I am in for needing God.

I have no idea how long this fast is going to last, so far it has been 8 hours. My stomach is already growling up a storm, and it doesn't help that the girl sitting beside me is chowing down on a four count chicken minis meal from Chick-fil-A. I just need help from God, so I am giving him my all. I don't want to be full until I am spiritually full. God fill me up!

"Fill me up, God
Fill me up,God
Fill me up, God
Fill me up

Love of God overflow
Permeate all my soul"

-United Pursuit Band

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

Isaiah 41:10